My shoes, you couldn't wear'em!!

Earlier today, my wife expressed her feelings as to various things which annoyed her.   After I read her post on Faceback, I have been pondering the thought of what annoys me?   If you ask my wife, she would say, "everything annoys Rob!"   Although, some people would agree with her, I feel that there are only a few things which truly annoys me.  This is what annoys me the most,  

Apathy and a general lack of respect for me and my family!!! Let me explain:

I have been a Cop for the past 16 years, prior to that I served our country in the U.S. Marines and the U.S. Navy!   Basically, my entire adult life has been for the service of others.   Now in polite conversations, most people would say, "oh, thank you so much for doing what you do... I could never do what you do!'  Interestingly enough, these same people who just confessed there inability to deal with what I deal with on a daily basis, are the same people who have the greatest apathy for me and my family.   It is a struggle to survive, the thought of losing your life over a bottle of MD 20/20 (AKA: Mad Dog 20/20), which incidentally is not that good anyway, is not the most joyful one to begin with.   However, I get up every morning, with the understanding this day could be may last, knowing that while you are at home drinking your wine or watching your favorite sporting event, I am out here sacrificing and enduring the horrors of this world so you can talk about me and my family.   

I love my wife and children very much!!  But I be damned if I am not with my family somewhere or my wife tells someone I am a Cop and we are either treated with or talked to with utter contempt!  What the heck is that?   You have the audacity to demanded I protect you from the "bad guys/girls" of this world, but have the nerve to turn your nose up at me because I am not a member of your country club or I do not drive a certain type of vehicle.   

Let me tell you this... If it was not for me, you would not be able to go to "your country club" and talk a lot of trash.   I have missed so much in my life providing a blanket of security for you, and yet I am the one who has to look my children in the eyes and tell them daddy cannot come to your play or no baby, sorry, you cannot have that doll, daddy has to save his money to pay the bills.    I mean, I spent almost 9 years as a child sex crimes / homicide detective.   I have seen things they will not put in a movie and the pain and scars I will live with for the rest of life. 

I mean how many times has someone told you, "I'm gonna shoot you with your own gun.... your family is gonna miss you..."  or how many time have you had to tell a mother her son/daughter is no longer with us.... or how about I am sorry your 10 year old daughter was raped with a 4 inch in diameter tree branch.   Well, I have lived eachof these experiences and many, many more!!

Now that is not the bad stuff, my family has suffered and still suffers today because I am out here on these streets.   In my line of work, if you have a chance to eat supper with family... then you have just won the lottery!!  I cannot tell you how many days I have worked, come home, and gone back to work again not seeing a single member of my family.....not once.   You know, I believe that God put me on this earth to care the pain and burdens of others, but my family did not sign up for the constant lack of respect for me and their support.   Because I am here to tell you, if it was not for my wife, Melanie, I am not sure I could have continued to do what I do!!! 

If you don't know Melanie, well... then you are missing out.  in December of 2006, God blessed me and told me to email Melanie on Myspace!  Since that day... well, you know how the saying goes... Really, Melanie has been there for me and has helped me with the struggles I must endure each day as a Cop.  I don't think there is anyone who could love someone as much is that girl loves me.

So what annoys me is this.... I would lay down my life for you and anyone in your family, but you won't even treat me or my family like we are humans........  So no, you couldn't wear my shoes!!

It is on......

Well, I have finally made to the world of blogging.... I hope everyone is ready....LOL!!